1st Christmas

Emotionally dad and I are not very good for each other, the second I walked into your house yesterday morning dad started crying and then so did I. He misses you so much and so do I. He did real good for the rest of the day. We all came here for dinner because dad asked if we could, as he decided it would be too much work for him, so they all came. It was good. I hope next year something different happens, because I know Todd won't be coming next year, as he has a family and he needs to start his own traditions. Maybe dad could go there, who knows, maybe a cruise. I really worry about him, there has been a lot of support for him from your friends.

Birthday

Well I made it through my first birthday without you. It was hard buy honestly I tried not to think about you so I wouldn't cry. We went to the new sports bar they opened at Desert Ridge. I don't think you would have liked it, it was rather loud and there were lots of t.v.'s with sports on. Not sure I like it either. You know I get sad because I cannot feel you and I thought as close as we were I would be able to. Maybe that will come later, here is a picture I took of the chairs you guys sat in at your party to send to Luon so she can make me another one, and look at the orb that is there by your chair, is that you watching us. Could you please take care of Canyon, he is having such a hard time staying out of trouble and being on the wrestling team. Could you help me understand him so I can work with him, He is hard mom.

And ignore the mess, that is where Canyon drops all his wresting gerar as he comes into the house.

Shopping with Dad

You needed a new love seat, so I went with dad to help him find one today. He really had no idea how expensive things had become, were were thinking of having a gray leather one made because it would have matched your purple couch, until the price came out and dad said there was no way he was paying that much for a couch. We found a nice leather beige colored one that will look nice in there and be comfortable for dad. Your headstone looks real nice.

I miss you,

Kimberley

CONCERT

Last night was Canyons Christmas concert. We saved a seat for you right next to dad. I know you were there in spirit. Who knew a year earlier you would not be around for the next one. Canyon did well. ,I love you, talk with you later,

Kimberley

Hi Mom

One holiday down, we did pretty good yesterday. It was the day before that thoughts of you would come out of no where and cause me to be sad. I really have to try hard not to think about you, otherwise I cannot stop crying. Dad is doing well. He came over for awhile yesterday, I don't think he has found his groove yet. I don't think it will be until after the holidays that that happens. Cayden has been really sick so I am calling the Doctors today to see if I can get him in. Poor little guy he is so sweet. I love you mom.

Angels

Cayden told me he made an angel today out of his blocks, I think these are for you. What a caring sole. Mom, dad is really going to need to feel you tomorrow. Todd and Kellie left today and Kathleen is leaving in the morning. Could you give him a hug so he knows you are around. He is scared mom and so am I. What are we going to do without you. I miss you so much, I cannot even imagine what dad must be going through. Just seeing him breaks my heart. Please take care of him mom. I am going to try, I gave him a card from our counselor maybe he will see her or someone else to help take the edge off. . I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU MOM

Have a safe trip to heaven. Already a sign you are with me my amaryllis poked through the dirt today. I will give them to dad as a sign you are still with us.

Air brush copic markers

since the first day of school we have already had fall break and are now into the third week of the second nine weeks. Funny how you look at a year when you are a teacher. Anyway over fall break I was the only one home during the day. Very strange Cayden had school, for the first time, I woud always keep him home with me on breaks since it was daycare, this time he was at school and I was at home. I loved being able to take him to school each day and be there like the other parents to pick him up after school. While I was home, I got out my airbrush and copic markers and created this bag and pencil or makeup holder. I don't carry makeup around with me but I have all kinds of drawing utensils in my purse I will use this bag to keep them all in.

1st Week of Kindergarten

Always a Battle

Flamingo

This is a Flamingo I purchased from http://jenniferajones.typepad.com/chasingthepesticidetruck/

Looks great in this frame.

What Was Inside the Bag

Here is a picture of the things I sent to my brother and sister in law, for the baby that is never going to get here.

15 years

It has been fifteen years since Canyon was born, hard to believe but even harder not to forget, we spent two weeks wondering if he would make it and if he would get to come home. It is very hard to have a baby and not be able to take him home. I remember like it was yesterday the nurse saying there was something wrong with baby Schuster, he was not breathing right, and for the next two weeks he stayed in intensive care while they tried to fight the spinal meningitis. Every day we went to the hospital at all hours to sit with him. To this day, I have to thank that nurse who was so well away of her job to notice that something was wrong with my son immediately and do something about it, before it was to late. I remember when he could first be taken out of his little incubator and be held my husband and I fought over who would get to be first, and for two weeks all we could do was look and talk to him. When they sent him home, he came with a plug in his head, so he could have injections three times a day. What a way to start a life. I am sure all the disabilities we see in him now stem from this hard start in life. But when you do not have a choice you do what you need to save a life and worry about the consequences later.

Stampotique Challenge

there is a whole lot more color on this card, it just does not show up, the background where the faces are is shaded in as are the faces, first time I have used our new printer. Does a vey sharp picture, just not sure about the color.

YuDu machine

I must confess ever since I bought that machine I have been rather afraid of it. The few times I used it I could not get a screen to burn, so I put it away in my Harry Potter room and have been tripping over it for the past year every time I go in and out of there. My daughter has been giving me grief about not using it, so I finally decided to get it out and see if it even worked any more. Now I am addicted. I have figured out the screen process, not hard just follow the directions, and have been using it non stop. It takes up a major part of the kitchen oh well, who needs dinner anyway.

Bag

Madet his bag for my brother and sister in law. they are having a baby, I am filling it with all kinds of baby stuff, will show a picture of all that I made and am sending next post.

Water bottles

And what do you do with the rest of the waterbottles? Why make flower of course!!!!

Third installment

Here is the third installment of Toy Story Three. When we won our four free tickets, I was told we were the grand prize winner and would receive free merchandise. I figured it would be some cheesy toys. The box arrived and it was full of some very expensive toys. I was surprised. I mean we never win anything. There were two Potato heads, one dressed as Buzz Lighyear and the other one dressed as Woody. There was a Buzz Lighyear Operation Game, and the all time favorite to shoot us with is some sort of gun that shoots discs. Cayden was thrilled to get a box in the mail, it came while he was swimming.

I Think He Liked The Movie

Toy Story 3

We won 4 free passes to a screening of this movie.