Hi Mom

One holiday down, we did pretty good yesterday. It was the day before that thoughts of you would come out of no where and cause me to be sad. I really have to try hard not to think about you, otherwise I cannot stop crying. Dad is doing well. He came over for awhile yesterday, I don't think he has found his groove yet. I don't think it will be until after the holidays that that happens. Cayden has been really sick so I am calling the Doctors today to see if I can get him in. Poor little guy he is so sweet. I love you mom.

Angels

Cayden told me he made an angel today out of his blocks, I think these are for you. What a caring sole. Mom, dad is really going to need to feel you tomorrow. Todd and Kellie left today and Kathleen is leaving in the morning. Could you give him a hug so he knows you are around. He is scared mom and so am I. What are we going to do without you. I miss you so much, I cannot even imagine what dad must be going through. Just seeing him breaks my heart. Please take care of him mom. I am going to try, I gave him a card from our counselor maybe he will see her or someone else to help take the edge off. . I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU MOM

Have a safe trip to heaven. Already a sign you are with me my amaryllis poked through the dirt today. I will give them to dad as a sign you are still with us.